Well, obviously I haven't written in over a year. But, with the inspiration from a dear friend, Cami, I have decided to rededicate my attention to keeping up a blog. After all, there is just so much that happens in our home on a daily basis, I could never remember it all. I am sitting here at the desk typing this as Oliver is "flying" his Buzz Lightyear action figure around my head and very excitedly yelling "To Infinity and Beyond". So, it is very difficult to concentrate, but, I will get through this post. Smile, breathe, and keep typing.....
Our family has seen so many changes in recent months and although I know that these changes mean awesome things for our family, I am still trying to find the ability to appreciate them. It is truly a struggle daily to remember good in all of this. You see, several months ago, Beau got a call from a potential employer in Nevada. It was Zander's 2nd day of 6th grade at Orange Park Elementary when he received the call. And eventhough I desired a change for both Beau and our family, partly because I knew how unhappy he was at work, and partly because I desired a change for reasons I didn't understand, I was scared. I couldn't even imagine living in Nevada. But, being the supportive wife, I told Beau I trusted him. So, he and I took a trip to Nevada for 7 days. We told ourselves that regardless of the outcome, we were just so excited to have a few days alone. Really, a vacation in a sense.
Before we left for Nevada, I encouraged Beau (without being nagging hopefully) to put his resume in elsewhere. You know, testing the waters and see if any other offers presented themselves. There was a company in New Hampshire that he had desired to apply for almost a year prior, but he didn't. The timing wasn't right and God wasn't leading him in that direction. Well, he went to their website once again and there was no job position available, but with God and my support, he put in his resume. But we didn't hear back. And so, we considered it a lost cause. We went to Nevada, enjoyed our time there, and Beau was offered a job. I was excited for Beau because it was the boost he needed and he was excited because of the possibilities of working with Ben and Dan. However, the numbers just didn't work. He tried in every way to make the money fit our needs but all the doors were being slammed shut. And believe me, if there was a way to make it work, Beau would have found it. Apparently, however, while we were in Nevada, the New Hampshire company emailed us and wanted to meet Beau. Now, they didn't have a job posted, but they said that they actually created a position for Beau and forwarded him a job description. How cool is that? So, off Beau went to interview for this job. Now, what was even more cool about all of this is that Beau had asked me months prior if I could live anywhere in the US, where would it be? I responded with NC or New England. Well, NH was definitely New England. Anyway, the company in NH offered Beau a job. Not just a job, but an offer that he literally could not refuse. We didn't even negotiate the offer because they were that generous. Yeah for Beau.
Once Beau accepted the job in NH, after much prayer, crunching numbers on paper, and discussion with the family, the doors flew open making everything possible. We know all of that was a God thing. So, on November 12, 2010, Beau drove to New Hampshire to start his new job on November 15. He left me and the 4 boys behind for the sole purpose of hopefully finalizing Carter's adoption. Today is March 14, 2011 and we are still apart. So, you see, I know that God is good and that it is a true blessing to have a great job in today's economy, but being apart is so hard. Being apart is testing my every bit of strength, patience, parenting abilities, and mercy. There are many days that I feel that I am failing miserably in all these areas and other days where I feel like I could conquer the world. I know that God puts us in these positions so that we will look to Him, but I sure wish I would learn whatever lesson He has for me soon.
I am truly thankful for the friends that I have surrounding me with their love, words of encouragement, ears to listen, and their constant redirection of me to my faith and truth from the Bible. I don't know WHEN this will all end, I don't even know for sure HOW this will end, but I do know that I have made it this far with God's hand and my family and friends.
Until next time..........
